okay, i'm most probably the biggest loser posting everyday and ppl most probably never read this but its okay cause i just post for. well. the sake of posting haha. (:
today was a long and boring day. i was rudely awakened by my mum to buy books. well, since my dad have been nagging me for like forever for not revising any shitnot for this whole holiday, i dont have much of a choice so i just went. but seriously. what he doesnt understand is that sec 3 and 4 have to work super hard, so i might as well relax for this last month. AHH saying it out makes me even more depressed. uhm. flowers? random but it ALWAYS work.
I DONT CARE, I DONT CARE, I DONT CARE!!!!!!!!! i love this song and i'm listening to it right now. haha. i'm serious, its like INGENIUS. the song is so freaking addictive and its so... STRESS-RELIEVING. haha so anyway moving forward to my life. wth its apologise now. lol. power of shuffle mode. heh. :D
so i went to ayer raja(courtesy of Celeste Yeo) wherethe pacific bookstore headquaters was located. i wanted to preorder but i could only collect it on earliest 11dec so yeah.
bought all my books, was SUPPOSE to go to town but my mum said she wanted to come back and change and guess what? she decided she was too tired! wow man, shocker! i mean, the fact that she has done this a million times is NO contribution to my disappointment once again.
wrapped all my books then 'read' the chem tb. OKAY FINE i ws my maid who wrapped it but HELLO i was sitting next to her watching her wrap! my mum said i have to learn so yeah. okay so maybe i was smsing while she was wrapping, but i get the ROUGH idea how to wrap a book now. (: impressive eh. SUE ME.
was watching spongebob(fav. of all fav., stalker ;D) then when my parents were coming back i hurry turn off the tv and well. read the book. tried to anyway. its so freaking fat and it was telling me things like cubic metres. like, uh. total lamo.
so yeah, i used to com after that cause well my dad thought i was reading my book remember. but when i was using halfway my dad called me then pointed to the screen and asked me, 'wah, never watch tv ah? so now i like watching MTV lah.' lol! cause it was him watching th tv last. heh. i dashed into the room like a retard so yeah. haha. luckily he thought it was funny. if he was upset... whoa man!
so yes. argued with him cause he wont allow me to sleepover at xinyi's with celeste. but yeah. i lost, no surprise, so now i am here posting.
honestly, i need to poot poot. but my bro is using the toilet so yeah. oh yeah, i worked out just now with my mum at the gym and now my thighs and calves feel so much tonner! slightly. OKAY, FRACTIONAL. gosh, you people are SO calculative!
tennis tmr, out with yili on friday, NO TUITION ON SAT OOHLAHH, out with leting, sylvia, huijun, tianli and shuxian on monday, sleepover with celeste and tanhong on tues&wed! it'd be so fun, we'll like take loads of pics with the built in cam. heh. cant wait cant wait! :D
ahh so much better! i dont have to tell you i just RELIEVED myself right! :D so yes.
God's really awesome. its like, after so many things happened, now i can just totally trust God. and the awesomest thing is, now when i get angry, think of God, and i just cool down! almost. but yes, baby steps, baby steps! :D God knows what He is doing, and because we don't, He is helping us so that we don't get to the wrong path. i mean, how great can He EVER be!
now when you look back to the previous you, you will feel so what-the-heck-was-i-thinking! i mean seriously. think abt it. i mean, thats for me. i was really unsensible and stupid back then, and i'm glad i've finally matured and grown up. even though life's going to get a heck more difficult, but everyone has to get through this, so its really your choice is you want to live it and look back when you're 20+ happily, and have that what-the-heck-was-i-thinking feeling. live it the way you want it to be, but remember to make the right choices. like me. now that i think abt that stupid stupidthing ihave done a few months back then, i feel so regretful. if i had just handled differently, i will feel so much less guilty abt screwing up my own friendship. maybe God wants me to learn a lesson. well OF COURSE its course He wants me to learn my lesson, He oes everything for a reason!
just when you feel like giving up, it just feel so so so much better and relieving that Someone is caring for you, feeling your sorrow, being there for you: God. so cherish every part of your life, cause it'll be gone before you know and regret, and by then even God cant turn the clock back for you.
Sophie Kinsella(Shopaholic series)
Go crazy.
