update;shit;WHATNOT
hello! haha i realise i always have really random titles. whateverr. you cant see it anyway for this blogskin. but i'm going to fix a blogskin for me and rachel. (: i suck at fixing blogskins apparently after losing touch for like a million years but yeah. haha. i've tried all i can so yeah. heh.
went to drama night yesterday! the plot kinda sucked but they were REALLY good at memorising their lines and all. (: haha. :D
so anyway, this week has past really quickly. (: bought a couple of stuff on monday. haha. so anyway, we all switched seats and now i'm sitting next to daphne. i can TOTALLY see through what flim is trying to do. she is like, putting me this noisy racket next to the silent girl daphne. haha. nicole said daphne's grades are gonig to drop if she sits next to me. HAHAA. whateverrr luhh anyway nicole is sitting behind me now and so is rachel and bai bao zi so i just turn around and talk to them and all. haha me and nicole share a common interest for ruan jingtian. and GREAT he's taken.
so anyway, whenever i'm doing something else under the table and the teacher's approaching, my faithful watchout daphne will tell mer and i will hurry stuf under my table and look up innocently and start nodding like Noddy. get it, make way for noddy. HAHA. funny.
rachel and i are going to get the same blogskin which are going to be quite different sicne she is cookie monster and i am elmo. haha. elmo is so much cuter than cookie monster lah. just like me and her. haha. its going to be quite an awesome blogskin but yeah. haha. you all might have to wait a while before you will see it. (:
uhhhmmm, things have been going well for me. i realised i have been burdening myself in the past thinking about my friendships, thinking of how to improve whose friendship and all and i'm just concentrating on the wrong things. because in the end, those who really care for you will stand by your side, and you dont have to come up with gimmicks just to get close to someone. thats stupid and i have learnt that.
so from now on i'm going to concentrate on the right stuff, like shopping and studying. haha kidding about the shopping part. i've really cut down on shopping but still alot but i'm really trying to curb this bad habit. sighh i hate shopping because whenever i see something and i cant buy it i feel so miserable. ):
end of year i'm going to hawaii/hong kong! hahanot decided yet. but yeah. i'm kinda happy. i'm so going to get my personal trainer. i'm SO SO fat. honestly i think i have this disorder that when i look into the mirror i think i'm fat. i'm serious! like literally i think i'm fat. SEE myself as being fat. and that sucks. i'm trying my best to cut down on food. i've given up completely on lunch now. (: i mean, i start the day with a breakfast meal, and end the day with a proper dinner meal. what bad is that? lunch seems kinda redundant doesnt it. (:
dont you just get the feeling of looking at anything, the sky, the fan, the wall or any random thing and you just ask yourself, 'what do i want?' and you keep thinknig and thinking and you cant think of anything. you dont know where to start the list, or what do you want exactly. this aimless feeling works for me sometimes, but i feel quite miserable sometimes. sighhh i think i'll excel in philosophy when i go to college or something.
there are going to be loads of holidays coming uppp! haha thats not a good thing becaue i'll end up slacking for those days. but i really have to study man! like, start already since the eoys are edging closer. sighhh! ): i'm going to force myself. as in seriously.
i feel kind of stupid for everything. i feel so clumsy, so careless, so gullible. its just so stupid when you set eyes on the wrong person you know. both friendship and relationship. like, how can you expect me to treat you with emotions and start loving you(as a friend or lover) if you dont even treat me as someone. urghhh i'm not making sense and i cant understand myself.
maybe if this world is a little less complicated, a little more simpler, a little less fearful, a little less competing, i will actually grow to love it.
whenever i think that i will not experience my life anymore, like after i die i'm not going to have be here anymore i get so scared. and if reincarnation really does exist then will i still be.. here? will me, foo weiyi's spirit and soul know or something. like, me now. will i just forget everything or even experience anything more? all these mystifies me.
i think i should start letting things go. start feeling. and just stay in the present instead of wandering to the future.
mixed feelings just overwhelm me like that.
Sophie Kinsella(Shopaholic series)
Go crazy.