opening up; putting myself down; living my own life.
the title is like totally emo and all. but yeah. let me just get on right.
i realise my days are like lucky unlucky lucky unlucky. SERIOUS. okay, you can read my previous post and see what a freaking loser i was on tues well, on wed things went kinda well for me. like, seriously.
i didnt finish my design brief and mrs ho allowed me to hand it in the next morning. :O that is a HUGE surprise(a good one btw) cause she's normally very strict and everything. heh. yupp. and not just that, i didnt study for tingxie kaocha(some chinese test) and only found out when i was outside the classroom after home econs. and guess what, the test is postponed to the next day! i tell you, good day man. but of course, my happiness didnt last long. /:
the next day, which is thursday was HORRIBBLEE! first of all, i went to school happily(SOMETHING LIKE THAT) and after assembly, i was booked for my socks. like hellooo, the prefect so strict arhh! normally they wont book me. i've NEVER been booked for my socks before. well, other than by zoep. but yeahh. haha. so yeah. and not just that you know. i went to the washroom with rachel(that doof brain) before history and this teacher came to talk to me about my skirt. like, UHHH. at first she was really nice, and she sounded super nice i tell you. then she wanted to know my class, form teacher(uh oh) and my name(SHIT). she thought my name was meiyi. -.- anyway, yeahh. i think that explains something that happened today. :O hahah. oh, anyway i was crapping lit. :D crapping gives you MARKS. i know this from experience. ;D
so after that was dismissal! woots, so fun arh. but not really. cause nicoco(MY LITTLE SPECIAL NICKAME FOR NICOLE, SO COOL RIGHT), amanda and lynette told me cant wear high cut fbts. i told you, i totally panicked okay. oh, it was pft yesterday anyway. (: so yeah. i borrowed 10 bucks from cheryl cause i wanted to buy pe shorts, and then to find out i CAN wear high cut fbts. luckily i havent buy yet. heh. anyway, rachel and i were late! haha. but we didnt get into trouble. ;D yupp.
i suck at pft officially. okay let me tell you okay. for sit and reach, tingyi told me 41 can get A. so i just aimed for 41cm, and in the end 42 then is . -.- so yeah. like, miss by 1 cm. SHUCKS I KNOW. for incline pull up, cant stand zhang leelee man! i do like 10 pull ups then she tell me have to redo. OBVIOUSLY I'LL BE TIRED RIGHT. she kept saying, 'cannot, must higher! higher!' like, purposely make things difficult for me! i know i dont pay attention during class and always draw hearts, but still! and sarah's chin barely touched the bottom of the metal bar and that teo lee lee just went, 'yi, er, san, si(that 1, 2, 3, 4 in chinese btw)' and i felt like URGHHH! haha. but yupp. at least i got C. :D and for shuttle run, i ran like 11.5 sec, and 11.3 then is A. ARHH! angry eh! haha. but yup. at least i got gold.
i tell you, when i was doing sit and reach chen saw my buffed nails and wanted to book me. she thought it was nail polish. heh. but she gave me a chance, and said she gave me till friday, which is today. obviously i've cut my nails and unbuffed it. heh. so unlucky right my day. booked once, almost booked twice. and today turned out not bad. :O
the 70 mark chinese test wasnt that bad. and i got back my eng compre and math marks. i did quite badly for both, but i was brooding over the math marks on tues already and i prepared myself for the worst, and all my worries and sadness were all used up on tues, so i surprisingly felt alright today. (: in fact, i felt good. cause i know i just made careless mistake here and there and i panicked thats why i didnt do well. so yeah. haha. i got 0 for the first page. :O oh well. haha. learn from my mistakes. the eng compre was alright. but SOME PEOPLE can just do so well larhh. still say lucky. sighh. must buck upp from now on.
oh, today we had this 'spot check'. so funny okay. cause i made myself unbookable. HAHA! so funny right. i
MADE SURE THE MGS SIGN COULD BE SEEN, wore my long skirt, pinned my badge EXTREMELY high, tried to make my hair neat(okay failed attempt -.-). so yeah. haha. good girl ehh. wasnt booked. haha. i must not get into detention i tell you. MUST NOT. heh. not many people were convinced when i told them i didnt get into detention last year. and that i never had a single booking till zoep became a prefect trainee(HAHA). i can understand. (:
i think its so pissing off when you really wish to see someone's crestfallen face when she doesnt get into something because you really dont like someone, and then that person does get it and has this stupid smug face and you just feel like smacking her face. yupp, thats what i felt today. and alot of people felt that way too apparently.
our seating formation changed! at first rachel and i sort of proposed this plan, but no one wanted it. HAHA. we got rejected. heh. but its okay, cause those loners at the sides came to join tables with us! (: and now i'm sitting next to abby and rachel. i'm in the middle! i like the feeling of being surrounded by people. heh. anyway, abby is SOO not awesome. she's like dellusional or something. sighh. so young, so blur. ;D
so yeah. yili's really sick! hope she gets well soon. heh. i was suppose to go to her house to study today, but i didnt in the end cause she's really sick and has to go see the doctor. hope she's fine! :D
so yeah. when i was coming home/at home(cant remember) i started to think about my life. as in, really think about it. so i was really upset, cause i kept thinking i'm such a loser. and honestly, it is slightly true. i'm not good at sports, i'm not good at studies, i'm not good at... well everything. so yeah. i kinda sucked. and i was really upset. and i was telling steph, and vented all my anger on her. SORRY DEAR! haha. i dont think she'd read this, but yeah.
THANK YOU, gen, for consoling me and telling me really nice stuff. thank you for making me feel better. ;D you rock, and i love you! haha. but yeah. you were telling me about how God wouldnt create me without giving me something to live for, so i just went to God and prayed. so i just told Him everything. and it seemed to work like magic. cause immediately i knew that if everything goes wrong, there's still Him. and that i can trust him, and lay my life for him. ;D like, He's telling me how to change my life if i want to change it that badly. like, it just came to me suddenly. and i knew it was Him telling me all this. and like He's saying as long as i trust Him, He will give me a leeway in life. (: i love God, and i just love everyone too. (:
i would really like to thank rachel for always telling me its alright and all after i did really badly for a test. even though you have a brain of Einstein and i feel a little inferior around you(okay, actually alot), i still treasure you alot as a friend. thank you! (:
this must be one of my longest post everr. haha. byee!
When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven.I find my paradise,When you look me in the eyes.-(
when you look me in the eyes by Jonas brothers)
Sophie Kinsella(Shopaholic series)
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