touched/hurt
uh, okay. this is for you. i hope you know.
i'm kinda confused right now. cause my life doesnt seem so simple like how you described it. and how you feel towards me:
No, I don't hate you. At least I don't think so.i'm not really that a bimbo not to understand this. i'm just too confused to get my mind straight. even though you feel this towards me, i just have to tell you this: sometimes i feel blessed because of a friend like you. but sometimes i'm really upset i got to know you in the first place. i have to be honest, since you are so honest with me. i dont appear hurt at all, at all points, do i? but i am hurt. and guess what, i'm hurt most of the time. i cry myself to sleep, almost 5 times a month. thinking of how screwed up my life is. you dont understand, cause you're not me. but i can understand.
Girl, you are the type we call blessed. Someone whose life will never suck. well, my life's current status? SUCKY. and no, i'm not exaggerating. i have a lot of problems. but i'm just too used to keeping it to myself. and oh yeah, my life's like sucky the most of the time. the only time i broke down because of such problems, other than eoys, was right after a very close friend of mine dumped me. i never told them to anyone, but only to tammiann. i really thank you for that, tammiann. you were the last resort, but yet the best one to comfort me. long story, and confidential one too, so sorry people. but yes.
Despite whatever problems you have, you will not be sad for life.well, i do have issues, but i dont think being emo's going to solve things, seriously.
You will not die because "your life sucks so much" ..i did tell you about some attempts to... well, you know. i ddont want to say it. but yes. i'm troubled by issues that you will never be bothered by. and trust me, you dont want to go through them.
Your kind of problems can be solved and they don't bite you even over time.oh, thats what you think. i'm not like.. THIS because of what i am. i'm like this cause of all the problems i've experienced. they leave permanent scars, you know. but you've never seen them. but then again, i doubt you ever will.
I have secrets that I will never forget for my entire life.I nearly made mistakes that cost me way more that I can give.You don't have those. You're lucky.i'm not sure if i can agree with that. because, my friend, i have secrets i will die to protect. i have secrets that are so shameful whenever they are mentioned, tears well up in my eyes and i have heart palpitations. i feel so terrible i start shaking and i have hold something so that i can calm down. i made mistakes that i'm willing to pay any price just to go back time and not do it. any price. lucky. uh-uh. not the word to describe me. i'm cursed with bad luck since the second i was born.
You have a good family with enough money to let you go overseas.i'm not trying to be mean, but who doesnt? i understand some, but well. i'm not a person who stops here. i'm not a person who's satisfied with this. and so, i'm not happy. i understand this sounds all bitchy and all, but sorry.
You get enough freedom to go out with your friends without much fuss.oh, thats not me, i swear. that is really not me. my parents wont condone such behaviour, trust me.
You don't get bothered too much by your parents for your studies, neither are you too bothered yourself. It's obvious.yes i am. i dropped to the second best class, and they started nagging, and compared me to other kids. you know how does that feel? and the fact that i'm a little more hopeful than my older sis and bro, it makes all the diff. my parents feel... disappointed at me. feeling hopeless abt ALL her kids. and i'm the one who caused her to feel that way. you dont have siblings. you dont understand. my parents have such high hopes of me. i just cant bring it up too much. i am very bothered. i'm not some wonderwoman. i cant take everything.
Girl, you cannot call up your friends when you need them,and ignore them or whatsoever when you don't need themi dont do that! friend, i'm not some sort of social reject who's only calling up one friend. i have to go out with other friends, call up other friends, and well, do some other stuff! i'm just not too used to sticking with one group. i'm sorry, and sorry again, cause you cant change the way i am. if you feel that i am neglecting you, tell me personally(dont post it at your blog, please) and i'll try to change! i can change by taking note of it, but if you want me to just stick going out with one group, i cant do that. sorry. going out with you all regularly is one thing, but ONLY going out with you all is another.
We are your friends, not people you hire to accompany you!i never ever said that. and i've always treated you all as friends. i dont have to call you all, but i want to! i can call some other people, its not like they'll put down the phone on me. but i do want to call you all! i cherish you all as friends, but i just dont express it that well.
It's ridiculous! I myself have been hurt by this "quality" in you so many times.i'm sorry if you are, but if just because i cant make it to some place with you all a couple of times and you're upset, well then i've got nothing to say. well okay maybe something. i'll try my best to make it the next time. but sometimes, i have to back out cause i really cant make it! i dont want to explain it over here. its far too stupid.
Ever since I started knowing you, it's been this way. I'll leave you to think about this one.i've been hurt by you too. and no matter how hard i think, i cant think of any examples of how i've let you down so hard. and... sometimes you're not the only one feeling this way.
I do not know how you will feel towards this post ..I may be wrong about some things.. I don't know.I say sorry in advance. But these are things that I hope you can know of.I hope you think about them, cos I treat you as a friend.I just want you to be well, that's all.i really dont know how to feel towards your post. but i have to say, partially touched. hey, thats good okay. (: well, you're certainly wrong abt some matters. but its not your fault. you just dont really understand me. and trust me, not a lot of people do. well, i accept your apology. and thanks for treating me as a friend. i want the best for you too. yes, i'm thinking of them. and yes, i treat you as a friend too.
okay, that part was only meant for a certain person, haha. :D but now i shall get on with my life. okay, should i wear my floral vintagy dress i bought in zara for dinner tonight or that black cute dress i bought in gap? its really cute, i swear. i'm not really sure which dress should i wear. i would have taken a pic and shown it to you people, but its in my mom's room. well, i was thinking of that floral vintagy dress. its really vintagy, and i'm more in vintage nowadays. its so cute, i swear. haha. :D so yes.
the black cute dress is really nice! the moment i set eyes on it, i fell in love with it. let me think, when did i buy it. just recently. i dint shop for my stuff today cause i wanna use the com while my bro isnt in. :D woots! i love it when he's out. haha. (: no one to fight with me over the com. :D haha. well yes. i'm still thinking really hard. well... WHAT DO YOU SAY PEOPLE? oh, i hear the floral dress! oh, someone disagrees over there, BLACK DRESS? who will eventually win? tune in to the next epi-
STUPID, there's no next episode! the dinner's tonight, loser! and QUIT TALKING TO YOURSELF! in singapore, or any other part in this world, we call it wierd.
ok, so i'll take the floral dress. AND THE VERDICT'S OUT! the winner is.. uh... weiyi. sorry, the other weiyi twin, try harder next time. (:
i love talking to myself, i swear. :D wow, this is a long post! oh gosh, i've still got chi tuition work to do! ): i'll do it tmr lar. sian, school starts on wed. thats like, 2 days later. but its alright, i can still look forward to chinese new year! thats fun, cause i get to buy more clothes! ooh, i love shopping. :D
should i change my blogskin. i'll change it lar. NEW YEAR, NEW BLOGSKIN! it totally makes sense. hey, i'm good! (:
well people, as much as i hate to disappoint you, i'll go now. i'll watch the 2 dvds my pal, rei lend me. haha. :D byee!
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shopaholic
hey people! i went to orchard today with my friend and it was so cool, cause i bought 2 things! well ok, just 2 things. one black vintage bag from charles and keith and a orange top from mango. its really cute(the bag), but my whole family is so against it. cause well ok, maybe i've got loads of bags, but this is seriously so cute! oh well.
i was shopping all day, and then i decided to go home. and here i am! ok, this is going to be such a short post, but i'm going to watch my show. its really damn funny. haha. bye!
too good to be true.
sorry for the late update
HI PEOPLE! okay, i know i havent updated since christmas eve, but HEY! i'm updating now! well, i've been shopping lately. and seriously, it was so fun! i love shopping. I LOVE IT!
i am legend is so great, i swear. but it's so funny. alysia thought the screen would be at around A seats, but in the end it was the O seats. and we were at N! it was super loud. and when the zombies came out, it was super scary. when i was leaving the cinema, i was shivering in fear and cold. seriously. but it was good! even though will smith aint hot, the movie's really nice. haha. :D
alysia get to buy stuff at such a good bargain, i swear. like, her warehouse wallet's like 23 bucks! ): and her fab vintage shirt's like 38 bucks. urgh. sad. but oh well. lucky her!
uh, let me think. what more exciting stuff. oh, i shopped alot. and i bought this cute necklace for my sis' birthday. she's having a sweet 16 birthday party, and the whole thing is she invited me. well, the rules is i have to get a life of my own, and do not mingle with her friends. well, fair enough for me. this is my... 3rd sweet 16 birthday party. it's going to be great, cause my sis said she's going to invite a live band. oh gosh, this is so exciting. i cant wait for my sweet 16 to come. my mum says if i do well for sec 3, i get to have it any way i like it. my sis has to be assisted. you know what does this mean! :D
ok, i have to watch my show now. its really nice and funny. haha. ok. and oh yeah, shopping reigns. really.
i cant believe you just blew it.
christmas eve!
EIGHT AND A HALF HOURS MORE TO CHRISTMAS!man, am i looking forward. :D
its christmas eve! i see santa.
halloha people! (:
hey people! i just finished gossip girl ep 11. and well. i just received this, huge, christmas gift.
i'm sorry, justin. i dont think i can accept it. i hope you're reading this.
but lets not dwell too much on it. so its christmas! hear the silver bells ringing? i just hope i wont be SUCH a social reject and receive 0 christmas gift from sch. haha. and guess what, i found out grace, one of nicole's friend's going to mgs! (: she said she's seen me before, but i've never. haha. :D but yeah.
the feeling of having juniors in sec sch really excite me. like, its so cool! (: i can finally understand how angela felt when she said she's so happy that she's having juniors at the start of the year.
well. last night, i was just lying on bed, thinking of how screwed my life is. like, everything crumbling. and i just felt like crying myself to sleep. like, how everything's not going to place. but then i closed my eyes, and locked my fingers. i prayed to Him, telling him and everything. after that, i just blanked my mind for around 5 minutes, and when i opened my eyes, i felt a sense of calmness. like, He's telling me everything will turn out alright. and he will help me and guide me through everything. i could feel my face go hot, for no reason. but i'm just really glad He touched me. thank you. (:
ok, i know that was random. but hey, i just wanted to... share? haha. well ok. i've got to sort out my hw and then i can watch my show happily. haha. you know people, i suddenly think that nate's so much hotter than chuck. and chuck's pretty ugly. no kidding. but of course, penn's as ugly as ever. (: haha. no offence, lyly! :D well ok, i've got to go now. bye! and i'm going to the gym regularly now. its really cool you know. haha. :D i love the club's gym.
what'd ya say, lover?.
WEIYI IS BACK! (:
yeah people, I AM BACK! (:
it was totally fun. i know i've been to paris once and london twice, i could totally feel the excitement when i touched down on rome. it was dark, and all the lights were lit up. i had a sudden feel of christmas, and i felt touched.
yes yes, i know, its wierd. but hey, i've never been to rome, people. :D its funn! (: i'll upload the pictures soon, but let me just tell you briefly about this. uh, i saw the peeing boy in brussel(someone put on clothes for him, so cute! :D), eiffel tower in paris(at night. thats why i put it up here-its really nice, no kidding), leaning tower in pisa(it's like, leaning at 20 degrees. it's so cool! i have to show you the pics. :D), and some other thingys but i cant remember. (: but i do remember it as very very fun! :D
well ok, i dont want to dwell too much on it. cause you know. school's going to reopen in like 13 days time. hais. i havent done much shopping in europe, cause i DINT GO TO MILAN.
dont look at me. look at the guy reading newspapers right now. oh gosh. i was like, WHAT? urgh. and because i dint BUY MUCH, i can easily name what i bought.
1. zara shirt.
2. esprit shirt.
3. zara shoes (they are to DIE FOR! they are so cute, seriously)
4. this really cute heart necklace in some accesories shop. (:
5. a beret in the same shop. -.- and those stuff are really really cheap! (: like, the beret's only 23 euro. (: haha. i wont get to wear it often though. ): sad.
6. a black handbag in some shop thats really really near my hotel in london.
7. a black wallet! (:
8. a gucci clutch. ITS FOR FORMAL FUNCTIONS, STRICTLY.
9. a burberry scarf. I DINT WANT TO! cause, uh, it was COLD. and, well, that stupid hand-down burberry scarf is so THIN. so like, hello. and i had to use this ugly pink scarf. urgh. so i bought a NEW burberry scarf! (: i wanted to buy the pink one, but my mum said that the original one was nicer, so i bought it. :D haha.
so thats it. i know, i could have bought more. but my dad gave us 500 euro each to spend in europe and london. and i've still got 143.70 euro left. (: haha. my dad's converting it to sing and i can spend it for shopping! :D so yes.
well, i'm really not looking forward to school reopen. cause of all the work and all. and GOSH, i just received news that jc's more difficult than sec sch. can you believe it? i cant. trust me, i cant. ): i'm so going to die. and then, i received news that there're tons of group work in smu. so if i dont get a place overseas, i'll go there! (: of course, i wanna go to princeton, or oxford, or havard, and yale, blah blah blah. haha. (: yupp!
i know i sound super stupid, but i feel so imperfect. like, my life's all crumpled up! ): i've turned so fat ever since i returned from europe. i've ben eating so much! I AM A PIG NOW! i bet i'm like 564544684kg. and like, why will i want to like about such a thing? PIGGY ME. ):
i think i'm going to watch gossip girl to cheer myself up. bye people.
signing off,
the piggy weiyi. ):
OMGOSH jamie lynn spears' pregnant?
HAPPY 150TH POST! (:
okay, i know i'm darn slow. (: but at the start of my blog, i blogged like once a month. haha. and my posts are normally really long. haha. (: but nevertheless, happy 150th post, that-insanelove! :D
let me tell you people, idiots seriously have nothing to do. yesterday night, this idiot (who is most probably a person who's surname starts with a S and who's name starts with J, YOU KNOW WHO) pranked called me. like, 4 times? i'm really going to bash him up tomorrow. but then again, he probably will act dumb. meanie. ):
today was kinda bad too. but its good in a sense. (: let me start with the good news. i got to pon tuition! :D haha. i told my dad yesterday, and he was like NO. and then i say PLEASEEEEE, WE ONLY HAVE TO PAY THE FEES TOMORROW. and then he went, well ok. i was super happy, and my brain went WHEEE!
ITS THE NICKELODEON ED! reasons why you should watch nick? the only channel that makes your brain go WHEE! ahaha. super funny.
but anyway, he added, 'i'll fetch you to her house and you'll hand the homework up.'
i was super upset. ): cause there's duhougan and i seriously hate that. but luckily, i got to pon tuition too. :D i dint have time to do my summary for the newspaper articles, so i just said, OH SORRY MRS RUAN i'm on the car already and i forgot to bring the summary. sorry! i'll email it to you!' which i am going to later on. haha. (: she said ok. haha.
but anyway, i woke up at like 6.30 (wa suppose to wake uop at 6) and did my work. super tired. but the thought of the class gathering and me going to europe 2 days later AND me getting to pon tuition perked me up. trust me, it works. (:
i went to lot 1 to collect my hw from celeste after handing up my hw to my tutor. xinyi was there too, and when i was in the car, i waved bye to celeste, and then when she noticed it and kinda looked at me, i stuck out my tongue at her. haha. its a long longggg story. haha. :D but then i smiled later. i asked celeste whether she saw me sticking out my tongue, and she said no, i doubt so. i dint even see it. (:
when i came back, i saw this stupid and scary cat at the something like an aisle. super scared. i ran back to my dad and told my dad. my dad was like, 'just walk by the main entrance.' and then i was like, 'ok.'
and yes. here i am. did i mention i really hate cats? they're so scary! ): and their, sad to say, errected tails. ): i really think they should just kill off all the cats and give them some ja so that they ALL can stay on mars. (: cat-free earth sounds great. (:
i'm really really looking forward to tomorrow! :D ok, i'm still in a dilemma on what to wear, but these are my options:
esprit shirt (a little longer than usual) (white)
pencil straight jeans (black)
skinny jeans (close to white-jean colour)
shirt with forests printings at the bottom of the shirt (black, printings white, longer than usual)
3/4 jeans (a lighter jean colour)
yupp, these are my options. (: there might be more, but i think i'll take from... 3-4 to choose my shirts and combination. haha. :D its a class gathering, so i must look my best. haha. (: formality, thats what they call it. :D
okay now, people. i really have to change my blogskin. i guess. haha. but i'm kinda sick of it. :D so byeee people! (:
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