dedication
heys peeps. there were loads of things that happened recently, but i dont wanna rack my brians and think so much. so i'm going to dedicate a post to oh-so-lovely justina! and this time its going to be a long and nice one. oh, my next post will be dedicated to pearlyn. hahah. HERE GOES ANYTHING:
dear oh justina,
you are just another person i've met in my life, but yet not just another passer-by like how most people are to me. to me, you are something like a lit matchstick, burning in the winter. of course, the winter refers to how i am living for these past 12 years. yes, definitely, i have tasted the warmth in this society, but i was certainly touched by the existence of you. you have allowed me to know how does it feel to be touched in the heart. you always tell me about God, and even though i cant attend events in your church and stuff, you continue preaching to me, believing that i will be moved one day. trust me, i was. but its something to do with my parent,s if you get what i mean. i trust the existence in God, and you were the one who really told me who's God. i've nver seen a more devoted Christian like you. and most importantly, you are willing to invest on me, even though people like Sophia have already given up on me for God. but no. you placed me in your Hit List, and tell me often about God, and those stories werre extremely interesting. i must thank you for that. if not for you, i would not have believed in the existence of God, and that is so important. and now, next to your personality. yes, there were definitely times when i found you unreasonable and couldnt stand you. there were times when i think,'why cant you just put yourself in my shoes and think about what i think?' and also think,' why cant you just stop to think of your actions? i cant stand you you know. dont know why i bother talking to you so often.' yes, those were the thoughts that flashed through my mind often. but being the oh-so-softhearted person, after i tell you whats wrong with you and let you think about it, you apologise and i think that you're repentant and start kidding with you. yups. i know no man is perfect, even jeanne the perfectionist of the century. and so thats why i trust that you can change. well, enough of your bad points. lets go on to your good points. you are always giving me encouragement, being so frank with me, letting me into some of your secrets occasionally, and unless i've really gone overboard you wont stay angry with me for long. those encouragement you give me are those i have never- well, not exactly never, but have heard little of such touching encouragement. when i was broke, you offered to pay for my food first and bought a bag for me. (ok, why does this sound like i'm like a beggar and you're that rich old man? whatever. hahah. ) i was really touched. and sometimes, you would tell me things on how to improve myself or whatever. to be truthful, some of those words have really made me cry. but i held back my tears and started smiling. i think you know that i was about to cry too, thats why you always pat me on the back and kept me going. thanks. and really, thanks for being so frank with me. that time over the phone, you told me all the bad points about me that made people dint exactly like me. i really appreciated that. you werent afraid that i would get angry, but you told the whole chunk of bad points about me, and there. yes, maybe thats what i admire about you: being so resillient. and now another point. you've always forgived me for whatever wrong i've comitted, even though you were really peeved. i understand when i've really gone overboard, you get angry and dao me. well, yes, that was really my mistake and i must apologise for that. not much major misunderstandings have occured since we've really known each other. but there is one that happened recently. no, actually, just yesterday. just yesterday you hated me oh-so-much, and today we're the closest of friends in school again. well, i want to let you know, i think i might have hurt you in msn. but as i've mentioned since i've known you, i am a very practical person. i wont invest on something that doesnt bear fruit, and you know that perfectly well since i've told you umpteen times. well yes. and maybe that is why i dont decide to invest time on ______. i think you know who she is, but just sshhhhh. so yups. i live in such an environment, where is everyone is cold. its like forever-winter. so please understand this. and for your present. i've really tried to make time to buy you a present, but i just cant find time. sorry. but i'll be going out with tammiann and rachel to buy some art stuff, and after that when they leave i can buy a present for you and celestial. so yups. sorry. yes, i think i somehow agree with your posts. i dont deserve to be your closest friend. and yes, not giving you your present on the day itself and dragging it for a week is indeed very bad. i'm really sorry. and to think we're closest friends! well, i hope this dedication have moved you to tears ad you're crying. no lar, just kidding.
well, thats the end of the oh-so-serious dedication! hahaha. i'm going to call justina to read it now. anyway, the last line isnt very serious lar. buy i've made an effort to make it very serious, seeing i'm such a comedian and stuff. hahaha. justina says that a dedication means the WHOLE post must be only the dedication, so tatas people! (:
WEIYI LOVES JEANNE! (jeanne, you'd better see this. i've done it. what about YOU?)
P.S. i'll try to blog more often, havent been able to do so because of all the test coming up after founders day week. byee!
Sophie Kinsella(Shopaholic series)
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